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My name is Brittany and I'm 21 yrs. old. I am an anorexic, and have been for 6 yrs. While there are periods of time where I have "recovered" I always go back to my old ways. I love being thin and the attention that comes along with it. There's something empowering about knowing that men want you, and yet you're the one who gets to decide if they are lucky enough to have you. But the main thing for me is the control factor. I love knowing that I can deny my body its need for food to the point where I might die if I don't eat. My sister, Ashley, used to suffer from bulimia, but after counciling she has been recovered for 3 yrs now, and she thinks that I have recovered as well. I hide my anorexia very well, and can even hide it from my doctor who keeps a very close eye on me. My sister is my best friend, but I don't think that even she could understand now that she isn't in the same boat, persay, as I am. I love how I feel strong when I'm hungry due to my own accord, and the feeling of empowerment I get from restricting. While some people may think that I'm stupid for caring so much about this, I am actually a very intelligent woman, and plan on getting my doctorate degree in Interdisciplinary Ecology from Princeton. My current philosophy is:
Starvation is control
Control is tough
Thin is beautiful
And I'm not thin enough.

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